Big Dreamer

Ok, so here’s the thing—I am a chronic over envisioner.  Yes, I am well aware that is probably not a
word, but stick with me here—just for a sec.  I have an irritating tendency to get an idea (most of the time it’s pretty awesome) and let my brain will totally run with it—leaving all common
sense behind.  I have been trying for months (maybe years, the time slips by so quickly when you are a daydreamer) to slow my roll, but that’s kind of hard to do when you are training  your 286lb pound body (currently 261, thank you) for a 10k.  I mean, really the thought of an almost 300lb woman running 6 miles is a pretty big deal—especially when getting out of bed was a chore.  Anyway,
here’s the issue I am having and I think I have been bitten by the envisioner bug….again.

There is a bike ride happening in October for breast cancer here in Atlanta.  There are different
levels of activity a rider can commit to, from 20 miles to 100 miles.  Want to take a guess at which one I’m thinking of choosing? Yes, you are correct! I am seriously gravitating toward
the 100 mile ride, how….ever….it’s 100 miles.  Not only do I NOT own a bike, but would I even be able to sit that long or better yet, will my legs actually work long enough to finish? 

I never thought I could run 30 seconds let alone 6 miles.  I still can’t, run 6 miles that is, but I’m
working on it. I never thought I could do the 60 minute Tae Bo workout completely without sprawling in the floor mid-way through and watching them finish.  Now, there were a few times when I did lay in the floor, eyes closed, cursing under my breath—but as of today I can actually
complete the whole 60 minutes with less curse words.  I never thought I could do the Insanity
workout…like at ALL, but after watching the infomercial long enough I decided to give it a try.  As of this morning, I am 17 days in—I do have a tendency to flip Shaun T the bird on occasion but that’s
only on certain days.  So with all of that said—if I made that my goal—to bike 100 miles—I could totally do it……right?

I can do it. I can do anything I set my mind to and that means this.  My inner self is shaking her
head ‘no’ but I will just turn around and pretend not to see her (wink).

The Runner